Seems like every time I promise to post more often something happens and my live does it sort of topsy turvy thing and the postings just drift away. Such is the case this time. After more than a week in hospital followed by a period in rehab learning to walk again i end up home again only to be stopped in my tracks by another Pancreatitis Flare Up. So I have been traveling that god awful path to recovery, if recovery is even possible. I am beginning to feel a little better, able to keep food down and trying to rehydrate my shriveled carcass. 

I am not going to say I will post more and more often. Rather I am just going to say I will post there there is empty time and my body is not busy trying to kill me.

But know that I have you all in my mind and, in fact, read your blogs religiously every day.

 Three years ago My Robert left life on this Earth. I loved him then, I love him now and I will love him for the rest of eternity. There is little that I can say that I have not already said about this. Just that he was the very core of my being and every day with him lives as memory within my heart. I miss you Robert more than I can say. I knew I love you then but never realized how much I loved you until you were gone.

 Good news! I do get to go home tomorrow. I have a home health agency all set up to come to my apartment and do PT with me 3 times a week. I will be in my own space with my belongings and all the things I love, not the least of which will be my Timmy who will probably be so excited to see me that he will wiggle and pee all over the place and that is alright. I can always clean up after him and will willingly do so.

Who knows, I may even relax into my life enough that I will write blog entries that are not about my health and are about more important issues like the price of tea in China or where actually is True North.

 The plan of care for me seems to be to cause as much pain and exhaustion as possiblep and the are doing just that. However the end result seems to be better balance and the ability to walk. They took away my wheelchair with the explanation that it was spoiling me and making me less willing to go through what I need to go through to walk safely again.

I doubt that I will be able to go home tomorrow like I hoped but maybe Monday. We shall see.

 Well a day or so after the last post I woke up without the use of my right leg. It was still there, I could still feel it but I could not move it and it would not help me stay upright. The problem was from the hip down and did not injur my torso and up. So I tried to use my arms to slide to the edge of the bed with the thought that if I could stand up all would be fine. Wrong! I fell to the floor and could not get back up and had to call for help who determined I needed another ambulance ride to the ER. A few hours later I am once again admitted for evaluation.

After too many test they determined that I probably had a mini stroke even though all their scans and test did not find anything. And, all the time the sensation began coming back to my leg but the memory of how to walk was still on vacation. 

So, I have landed in a rehab facitlity called Brightpoint at Lytle Lake. Not a bad place and has great staff. I checked in on the Weekend so don't have a plan of care until tomorrow ( Monday ) so no idea how long I will be here. But at least healing is beginning and the staff and Doctors and other professionals actually are listening to what I am saying and go beyond treating symptoms and treating what was causing the symptoms. I hope my stay here will be a short one. And, of course I will keep you all updated even though you might be thinking what can happen next. Guess what, so am I.